Just end already

I am tired of being tired. Today I essentially did nothing and it was well-needed and fantastic... except for the occasional panic that I didn't study.

I did have sex today. Finally. It was pretty good, but I didn't get off... no surprise. RedSox and I used the vibrating condom that we bought over a month ago. It turned out to be a re-usable vibrating cock ring, so I guess it's good that we can try again.

Afterwards, we were relaxing and watching tv. I turned to him and thanked him for dinner last night and lunch today.

RedSox thanked me for the sex. I know he didn't mean anything by it, but it hit me that we barely have sex. I am never in the mood (even today). I used to go crazy if more than a day went by when I didn't get laid!

Tonight I celebrated a good friends birthday. Afterwards everyone was going to a club to dance. I'm home because I am exhausted.

I keep trying to tell myself that life will get better. There will be a time when I can smile again. There will be a day when I can honestly say I am happy. This whole med school process is temporary. It will be worth it in the end...

Could this please just end already?