I knew I was outta luck the day the music died

Spring Semester 2002

When sophmore year ended, so did me and Hippie. I was pretty unhappy with our relationship anyways. I always wanted to see him. He wanted to hang out with his friends. His friends loved me and were so happy about the relationship, but they had me on watch to make sure I didn't flirt with other men. I was sort of stuck, but luckily the end of the year ended things for me... or so I thought.

In January of 2002, Hippie was back on campus after a summer and semester abroad. In the time that he was away, there was BlondEngineer, Matti, KoreanDancer and plenty of non-memorable kegs... but when I came back for the spring of 2002 I was excited to see Hippie. I was secretly hoping we could start back up. Things would be different this time around.

When I arrived at the party, I saw him but was too drunk to properly think of what to say. We said hello and hugged, but I felt weird. We didn't really chat and I didn't see him for the rest of the night.

The following week, I go out to Sligos and a lot of Hippie's housemates are there. I had just gotten back from downtown after a night with BlondEngineer, and I wasn't in the mood to think about Hippie. But they were all very excited to see me and told me that I just HAD to come to their house party on Saturday.

When Saturday came, I hit up every other party I could before heading over to Hippie's place. I was nervous, but finally I sucked it up and headed over. It was cool because there were a lot of people there, plus I had Twin with me. Hippie and I didn't really make an effort to have a conversation, but finally I got the guts to go over to him.

The attraction was still there and I totally got a vibe from him... but I was still really nervous. The entire house was watching us, waiting to see what would happen.

We didn't hook up that night, but I did stop by the following week. We finally got some alone time. It was late, and I was lying in his bed with him. I felt good. I liked him. I was so happy because this was it... our second chance.

Hippie is holding me tight and then he says, "I'm sorry Roxy but I can't hook up with you... I like someone else."

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an unexpected relationship

Spring Semester 2002

Finally back after a winter break and straight to the first big party of the year, there he was... Hippie. I hadn't seen him since the end of last year.

I'll backtrack for a second. Sophmore year I became good friends with my neighbor HKJ. She was a label-whore/pothead from Hong Kong, and I loved everything about her. We quickly became friends and she started taking me to parties at the Swimmer/Sailor house. Going to that house felt weird for me. I didn't really know many of those people and they all kind of kept to themselves. That was about to change...

One night I'm there with HKJ and I start chatting it up with Hippie. He was adorable, great smile, nice guy, very comfortable to be around. Slowly but surely people started to leave the room, but we stuck around to keep talking. Suddenly we realized everyone was gone, so we went looking for them. Nobody was really around, but music was blaring in the empty ping-pong room. He asked if I wanted to dance, so we did... and then we started kissing.

I guess it was while kissing that people suddenly reappeared because practically everyone from upstairs made it a point to stop in the room and check us out. After kissing for a while, we finally broke apart. I went home and he went back upstairs to hang out with his friends.

The next morning, HKJ barges into my room. "You hooked up with Hippie!!! I can't believe it. Roxy, you don't understand. Hippie doesn't hook up with anyone. After you left, everyone was asking me about you. Who is Roxy? Where did she come from? How did she manage to get Hippie?"

I wasn't quite awake, but my reply was pretty typical. "What? Just another keg tapped and kicked." HKJ went on, "uh well I am ok with that, but you don't understand. Hippie is a great guy, and his friends are very protective of him. Just be aware of that."

Well, I was aware. That day I headed to the library to get my study on. It turned out a lot of the people from the Swimmer/Sailor house were there. As I walked by a couple of the girls, I heard whispers "That's HER!!" I didn't think anything of it. But then I ran across BlondDreads. This guy barely acknowledged my existence in the times I've met him through HKJ, and all of sudden "ROXY! So good to see you! Did you have fun last night? I'm glad you could come by."

Oddly, he wasn't the only one glad to see me. Throughout that day, everyone from the Swimmer/Sailor house made it a point to say hello to me with big smiles. It was weird, but I loved it.

Hippie and I started hooking up on a regular basis after that, but it wasn't all that great. I didn't think we were in a relationship, but his friends made it a big point to refer to me as Hippie's woman. They all made an extra effort to get to know me. They all would smile and say hi if we saw each other around campus. They ALL kept an eye on me and didn't like it if they thought I was flirting with other guys.

They all seemed to care so much about me and Hippie being together, and I got so caught up in the whole situation that *I* cared about being with Hippie... the only person who didn't care so much was Hippie...

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Homewrecker

Well I said a few posts ago that I would be on hiatus until Step 1 has been conquered, but I took the time to copy some very old emails from back in the day for your pleasure.

Let us begin...

Fall Semester 2001

Let me introduce you to the newest homewrecker... me. The last two guys I hooked up with have girlfriends.

One night my ID had been taken away at Sligos (yup... believe it), I was already wasted and I argued with the cop forever to try and get it back. It didn't work and I stumbled home. I went online to check my away message and immediately upon becoming active, my friend Matti IMs me. He is good friends with Hippie. He's like, "I wanna come over and hook up." So I'm like, "It's freaking 20 degrees below outside, come over."

I swear less than 2 minutes later my doorbell rings. Matti and I hooked up, and he slept over. He got up in the morning kissed me goodbye and left. At least I think that's what happened... so ridiculous, but I am a little worried. I don't want him to tell anyone. He is in the same group of friends as Hippie, and the drama that could ensue... Anyways, it turns out Matti has an on/off girlfriend. He tried to hook up with me again the following week, but I couldn't allow it.

Speaking of the following week, it happened to be Fall Formal. I didn't have a date, so I let a couple sorority girls hook me up. My date was BlondSailor... soooooooo hot. We drank it up, bringing a bag of wine on the party bus. We tore up the dance floor. We had such a blast and at the end of the night, he walked me home and made out with me on my front porch... forgetting all about his girlfriend. Oops!

I don't know how I attract these guys. Maybe it's because I give them a taste and then I'm done with them... kind of like tapas.

Anyways, I'm packing to go home for thanksgiving and Matti is asking if he could come over and keep me company in my bed. "I'm sorry keg, but you've been kicked."

The semester is almost over and what a ride it has been. Hippie is almost done with his semester abroad and he'll be back in January...

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