I asked

One thing I've learned from therapy and my experience is that communication needs to happen often. I didn't wait very long to ask RedSox about his profile on the website.

Every time I stay over his place, I am the first to one to go to sleep. He always lies with me for a few minutes while I fall asleep. Last night I was smirking quite a bit while we were lying in bed together and he noticed, asking what was on my mind.

So I said, "if you're going to meet women off of [website], could you please wait until I leave for LA at the end of the month."

I think he had the same reaction i did when he confronted me about my infidelities. Shock, fear, guilt. He promised to take down his profile. 

I decided to trust him, and ultimately enjoy the rest of our time together. Afterall... we're going to the Bahamas this weekend.

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Highly Amused

I promised RedSox I would be faithful for the remainder of our time together in Boston. When I received an email alert from a dating website I had used in the past, I logged on to cancel my account.

In the corner, there's a link to another dating website where I had an account as well. I clicked on that site to cancel my account too. For kicks I decided to see who was in Boston before I cancelled.

And there it is... RedSox's profile. He created it on Valentine's Day and last logged in a week ago. 

I'm wondering if I should tell him I know now or later or never... what do you think?

I'm very confused right now and highly amused. 

He forgave me for my infidelity. I've been working on it in therapy and being faithful. He's been working very hard on himself too. I feel like even though we are going to end when I move away for residency, we have been doing very well. Communicating, improving ourselves, moving forward.

I dunno... i just can't stop laughing 

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