Easing into cardiology

So I was dreading my cardiology rotation because the last two classmates who went through it found it to be brutal. Long hours, crazy days, scary attendings... but a fantastic education.

I gotta say that although I could do without the hours, I've been having a pretty fun time on my service. I haven't had scary attendings persay... but definitely some intimidating moments.

This week I've been a little nervous around my attending. He jokes around a lot with every other word a curse word... but today my fears subsided.

First he told me to call him by his first name. Then when I told him about the sleep studies discussed in grand rounds, he made a comment that got me to laugh out loud (something I haven't done in a long time).

Me: "Yeah apparently you need to get 7 hours of undisturbed sleep to avoid developing insulin resistance"

Doc: "The last time I got 7 hours of sleep was in utero... Sh!t... F*ck that."

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Dr. Pornstar

So I like porn. I'm not embarrassed about it. It turns me on.

Well I was watching some porn the other day... one of those boss seduces employee scenes. I couldn't help but notice how much the guy looks like one of the cardiologists at work.

Now I know it's not him, but the resemblance is uncanny.

Truthfully, I kinda wish it was him. He's got skills... and as a student, I would be an eager learner.

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Drinking on a work night

So I'm on my cardiology rotation. It's tough but a lot more interesting and fun than my last 2 blocks have been. People are calling me a white cloud because there are only 4 patients total on the service and they're used to upwards of 25.

Unfortunately I still have to get in early enough to round by 6:30am. I generally get to the hospital at 5:30am to give myself time to pre-round and read all the extra notes and stuff of happenings over 24 hours.

This weekend I have a black weekend. It sucks because I have to work until 9pm saturday and come in for a half-day on Sunday. Having done this before I know that we start rounds a little bit later than usual. I asked my resident what time and she told me not to pre-round and to be in by 8am.

8am? That's so late! That's awesome! I can drink tonight!

Yup... that was the exact sequence of my thoughts... and yes I will be drinking tonight on my valentine's date with RedSox at Ruth's Chris.

Hope everyone has someone to love and someone who loves them more back.

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Recent Thoughts

This is what's been on my mind lately:

Open Letter to a potential Sugar Daddy

In exchange for companionship, great conversation and smiles I hope to be well compensated, ideally a monthly allowance.

I have basic needs such as food and shelter just like anyone else.
I love to work out, but I'm losing motivation. This can be fixed with a gym membership and trainer.
I love designer labels for clothing and accessories.

When I look good, I feel good... and that makes for a happier and more fun arrangement.

If this sounds alright with you, please reply with your picture and thoughts.

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Time Off

Though I know I probably won't do this, I wonder if dropping back to the class of 2010 would boost my application for residency. I was in the education office the other day for a meeting and I saw the average for the Renal Exam. It was a 72%. Last year for my class, the average was a 92%.

I think I got a 90% on the exam, which means the majority of 2009 did better than me. BUT I did better than the majority of 2010. Interesting.

When we had our big class meeting a couple weeks ago, we learned a lot more about the Dean's Letter. We're ranked and sorted in 5 categories. I'm sure I'm in the Good category for 2009... but I might bump way up to Superior if I joined 2010.

In doing all this math, Sister told me that in the end it doesn't really matter. My class is full of lunatics and stressballs, and I shouldn't get caught up in it. I should in fact make connections, which I've already been doing and work on getting good recommendations.

The right words from the right people prevail in the end. I've always known this, but sometimes I forget. So I need to remind myself how I got into Tufts Med in the first place... off the waitlist... thanks to knowing a Dean who loves my mom.

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Is it time to change?

The following day, we all rounded as usual. There was a point where it was just me and my intern. I asked her if she could give me some feedback on how i've been doing.

She said I've been doing really well. Everyone likes working with me. I've contributed a lot to the team. I've even brought up stuff that she never thought of, or come up with answers when the rest were stumped.

Since people sometimes mask the truth, I wanted to be extra sure. I told her what had happened in the computer room, and her mouth dropped to the floor. She asked who the resident was that said those things and I tried to describe him for her.

According to my intern, I don't suck at all. The resident who said that must have known I was the med student and said it on purpose as a joke.

Later that morning I presented a paper on acute kidney injury, then went off to med student conference as usual. That afternoon, my resident complimented me on my presentation.

I wonder if my intern told them what had happened.

Either way, I'm glad I asked. The only way I could change is to know exactly what needed to change. Sounds like I don't need to change a thing.

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