And the shoes have been chosen.

So I didn't think too hard about the designer label for my wedding shoes.

I figure most brides would choose Christian, Jimmy or Manolo... All whom I love... but I know just a titch more about fashion than most brides.

I didn't want super unique, something blue... or really anything I'd only wear once.

I wanted a pair of shoes that will go with my sari, my Sue Wong dress (see post below) and my lehenga.

Louis Vuitton has an amazing pair of sandals called the Saint Honore in Damier Canvas. They're super cute with the damier dice... and with a whopping price of $995, you better believe I'd wear them and vacuum store them for a lifetime.

Unfortunately, they didn't have a pair available in my size. And in order to get it, I would have to buy it first and then decide if I want to keep them.

So I said forget it and went with a designer I have grown to love, not only for his talent, but also for his orange skin.

And for $300 less, I got these cutie pie shoes that will go with anything and everything and be in fashion for life!

Thank you Valentino!

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Struggling

I'm gonna take a break from talking about wedding/bachelorett/marriage stuff to talk about the every day of my life... work.

I'm into my third year after graduating medical school, second year of radiology residency, and I'm really having a hard time.

I mean I'm getting it. Like I can make findings, point out the fractures, appendicitis, blood clots and what not. But I still feel so inadequate.

And I'm struggling with stuff I know!

Yesterday I took my in-service exam. It's the annual exam that we all have to take to "check our learning progress." I know this exam doesn't count for anything, but I still try to take it seriously.

Then what happens? I make the same mistakes I made last year. I narrow it down to two answers, and choose the wrong one. Or I pick the right answer, then doubt myself and change it.

I know I could know more, and I don't want to be a complainer, but I am just so tired. I am so jealous of my coworkers who didn't know the answer either but chose the right one.

I hate feeling judged based on this stuff. I hate feeling panicked because I worry other people think I'm not smart. I hate the constant reminder, (which yes I realize is me and not anyone else) that I'm never going to be good enough.

I'm 30, and I still feel like I'm not an adult.

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A wedding outfit per request

I only have one of my dresses in my possession available for viewing.

Three other possibilities are currently in the works. (One might be done, but I just haven't felt like going to pick it up...)

Here is what I will wear to the dinner at Ruths Chris after the ceremony... and possibly the Indian reception.

Sue Wong platinum beaded and jeweled ostrich feather trim dress.

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Happy New Year!

At least that is my hopes for everyone.

2011 and well the last few years have been quite the struggle, and I hope life will get better.

It has a little bit, and who am I to complain really.

I have a job, a coveted job, that I need to appreciate more.

I have a great guy who will become my husband in 2.5 months! It's crazy to think that exactly one year ago we could have broken up and I wouldn't have thought twice about it. With therapy and hard work, we are right for each other.

I have my health, though I worry its declining a bit. I've got a plan in place though which includes better nutrition, a personal trainer and a therapist.

I believe in actively trying to better oneself and creating resolutions all year long, so I don't really have any resolutions.

I just have my checklist in place to add goals and check other off.

I am hoping 2012 brings more goodness and success, not just for me, but for everyone!

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