How would you describe youself?

Anytime I've written or responded to a craigslist ad, I've always desribed myself as petite, fit, fun, cute and outgoing. It just rolls off my fingers as I type. Never would I have written aggressive (possibly sadistic), self-confident (borderline narcissistic), dramatic, and conscientious (a tad OCD).

Well those were the top 4 peaks on my personality self-portrait graph.

I went into work yesterday, and Dr. R said he felt bad that he hadn't taught us much. We went back to his office and he started blabbering away. He might have been trying to apologize for his passive-aggressive behavior through patient examples. This man may either be really clever or just not know when to shut up. (After today, I'm pretty sure it's the latter).

Anyways, in his dramatic speech about how he may be deemed passive-aggressive with us med students he side-tracked to talk about personalities and handed me a comprehensive personality test. I'm talking over 100 questions to be followed by calculations, plots and graphs.

It was my task to take this personality test, so I spent a good hour doing the thing. When finished I had no idea what the numbers or graph meant, but I did notice aggressive was a peak on the graph towering above all the rest.

I took my finished assignment back to Dr. R. He commented on the aggressive peak and said "yeah, I can see that."

What the hell does that mean? I'm not aggressive. At least I didn't think I was. So I took the book and read the chapter on aggressive.

Hmm wow, ok so umm... yeah, I guess I can be pretty aggressive. And geez yeah, people have said some of the exact words to me in the chapter, especially after a night of drinking.

Well the good thing about this book is that not only does it describe the various aspects of personalities, but it gives us 2 very important sections: How to deal with these people and exercises these people can do to tone things down.

In some ways I need to tone down the aggression, but in other ways I need to embrace it. Aggression is the reason I compete so well. Aggression is the reason I have CEO potential. Aggression is the reason I have succeeded in most of what I've done. Aggression is the reason some men can't get enough of me... sadism is the reason I keep these men around ;)

I'll do what I can to avoid the progression towards sadistic personality disorder, but for now I think I'll be myself.