A Fresh Start

I found myself rather bored this week. Pediatrics is the opposite spectrum from surgery. There is very little to do, and when I try to go see my patient in my spare time he/she is usually up in the playroom.

I come home much earlier than I'm used to. The sun is still out.

I knew this would happen, and I looked forward to this day. Yet, now that today is here I feel pretty sad.

When the boards and surgery were finally behind me, I had thought I would be hanging out with ex-roomate again. I thought we would do our Sunday Desperate Housewives nights and Wednesday Top Model nights. I figured we would have the latest season of Lost on dvd and spend the weekend in. I was hoping that things would get back on track now that I would have the time and energy and she was back in the apartment for good with the start of the new school year.

Instead, my apartment is relatively empty. No TV, no toaster, barely any food in the fridge, a large empty bedroom that needs a new occupant...

I was talking to Ruby about it because she too had a bad break-up with a friend a couple years back, and she made a good point. We'll always miss the good times, but the rough times were never worth it. I didn't have much of a rough time with ex-roomate until the end, but I do realize that a friendship with her ultimately isn't worth it.

When I got home after shopping with Ruby and Gorilla today, I started making some changes. I pulled out all the artwork I had accumulated over the years to decorate the apartment how I'd like to see it. I threw a slipcover over the loveseat to hide the damage caused by my ex-cats. I rearranged the furniture.

I have started putting things together for me, for my life. It's time for a fresh start.