Just Say It!!!

I have been guilty of yelling at my friends for not communicating what they want to their significant other. But now that I'm in a relationship, Shut Up I finally acknowledge it, I find myself doing the exact same thing.

I've got a rigorous study schedule for the USMLE and it keeps me at school from 9am to 9pm. Tonight I found myself semi-whining to RedSox. "Well I FINALLY finished my studying for the day... Guess I'll make the LONG WALK home... Jeez I am TOTALLY exhausted."

After a little bit more, he offers to come pick me and drive me home. If I was a complete bitch (Quiet in the peanut gallery), I would have accepted and taken the ride home. The truth is I wanted to see him tonight. I wanted him to want to see me.

I could have asked, "sooooo do you wanna hang out tonight?" or blatantly stated "I want to see you." But I didn't. I worry about overstepping the boundaries. I have no freakin clue what the boundaries are, but I simply don't want to overwhelm RedSox.

We both have an intense fear of relationships and committment. Yet we are monogamous and completely committed to each other. We just won't admit it.

And ok fine... I don't want to be the first one to make the move.