Suddenly Sour

One of my exes described me with the phrase "from one extreme to the next." My sorority nickname was Infinity because I "do things to the extreme." Actually I just hooked up the most guys out of all my sisters...

While before people were referring to my level of excitement/activity, today I feel like it has more to do with my emotions.

Today started out great! Time at the gym flew. I paid attention in class. I learned about a cool Polish restaurant in town. I won a $100 gift certificate for shoes. I was FLYING high.

Now I'm at a big low. Without thinking, I talked over people who were in charge of a lunch meeting. I apologized the second I became aware of my rudeness, but I just can't get it out of my mind.

I just received a library assignment back... YES... a freaking assignment corrected by the librarian. I did fine, but she had a lot of comments to make on my "fake" assignment.

Yes, I had to make up a "fake" question and research it for learning purposes. Apparently my question was so good that there hasn't been enough research on the topic yet. I should be submitting it for grant funding instead. What a crock!

And then RedSox invites me to go out for live music tonight. I generally don't care for live music unless it's Sinatra or something ethnic. I have the apartment to myself tonight, so I declined. He replies that he doesn't have to go if I want to do something else.

I should realize he just wants to hang out with me, but I'm thinking more along the lines of I'm ruining his night.

I'm going to go do my deep breathing exercises and try to study. oh joy!