In God We Trust

After my exam, i pretty much flew straight to Indonesia to spend a week with some ladies in the family. My mom was a spazz the whole time, but everyone else was chill and awesome. The trip was great, but I am so thankful to not live in a third world country.

The whole time, I missed NotMexican, too. Usually when I leave to do my own thing, I have so much fun and barely think about the guy I'm dating. It was different this time and sucked. I wanted him to see and do what I was doing, share it with me.

I also told my mom about him. I naturally left out the parts about him finishing up undergrad now and being divorced... so she likes him already!

Now of course in any relationship, I tend to think too much. I began creating scenarios in preparation for the future, and I've been really worried about NotMexican moving to Boston.

Here comes the terrible What If game...

What if he doesn't like Boston, what if he doesn't get a job, what if he doesn't get into grad school, what if this, what if that, what if what if...

It really started to affect me and I didn't know how to handle things.

And then we went to church yesterday and the sermon was pretty much about the What If game... and the minister asked, "

What if you just had faith?"

It was all I needed to hear, and now I've put our relationship in God's hands and feel SO MUCH BETTER.

Oh and I didn't freak out when NotMexican told me he wanted to marry me and have kids with me. Ok I freaked a titch...