Winding Down

My year in Denver is coming to a close. I've got one month left and it's gonna be crazy busy.

I've secured my apartment back in Boston. I'll be back in Beacon Hill, and I got a great deal for a 1 bedroom. The realtor was kind of a douchebag and relatively incompetant in my opinion, but I had to go through him to get this place. BTW, I had NO IDEA that a realtor fee in Boston would be an entire month's rent. So heinous... but in the long run still a good deal.

NotMexican has already booked his trip for 4th of July, so I'll only go a week without him, which should give me plenty of time to fix up my place. It's now my turn to book a trip in advance to come back to colorado to visit him... but I'm feeling hesitation.

I know that if I book the trip, I'm truly comitted to making this relationship work. And I've never been truly committed to making any relationship work. I still haven't told RedSox about him because I think it's rude to break that kind of news over facebook, email or text. I'm just overall feeling nervous I guess.

Plus I'm kind of down about work. My year of internal medicine didn't go as well as I hoped. I can't fake enthusiasm and in a female dominant field, the attendings made it very clear that they did not like my lack of interest. My only goal was/is to take care of patients, and for the most part I think I did as well as any other intern. I'm kind of annoyed that I was targeted for lacking enthusiasm when I know all my other co-preliminary interns had the same attitude... but fortunately for them... they had male advisors.

So much to do and hopefully this last month will fly. Of course, I'll be keeping you posted on the drama to ensue once I return to the Bean.