I asked RedSox to try different positions. We'd try for a quick second and then he'd flip me back into military. I asked him to go down on me. He refused due to a traumatic try with an ex-girlfriend. I think she reamed him out and he's never recovered.
To help him, I bought the Guide to Getting It On. He felt too conservative to read it. I offered to read it with him, work on our sex life together. He put his foot down, and I had no hope.
That's when I started to stray.
Fast-forward to now, our relationship is hanging by a thread. RedSox knows why I strayed. When he gave me the lingerie on Valentine's day, he stated he was willing to try more sexual positions. He searched for the Guide but couldn't find it. He wants to read it and wants to work on our sex life.
I felt bombarded. I was so shocked and instantly uncomfortable. I wasn't ready to have sex after all this time... let alone do everything I wanted to do over a year ago.
We finally did have sex later in the week. We tried a different position. I didn't get off (though I'm certain it's because I was freaked out by the change).
I appreciate that he's trying, but it also made me feel angry that he waited until I threatened to end our relationship. I confronted him and he admitted that was the push.
I was strongly considering ripping the band-aid and letting him go last week. After I confronted him and we talked it through, I decided that I am going to stay. Why?
Because if I leave, he'll never try to better himself in the ways women want. He needs to be better at sex. He also needs to lose a couple (30+) pounds.
Weight... my other issue...
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